Today was interesting as far as pacing goes; I felt alternately almost hyperactive and then quickly drained to rest-needing mode about three or four times.
Breakdown of events:
Went to meditation practice. My physical senses were challenged by the incense in the closed room, but the meditation topics were very good for me this week: first one on the clear, transparent and reflective nature of mind, and second one on impermanence and how we and everything around us are constantly changing minute by minute. I find this helpful with chronic illness in mind; though I may feel stuck in a challenging or painful mode I am constantly moving through it. The changes may be gradual or almost imperceptible to us but they happen. It is good for me to reflect on this.
I was a little groggy after this but did a short errand on the way home and started to get wound up, planning for a project I have going on. I did eat and nap after arriving back home.
Got onto email and had some fun interactions which lit up my brain again; did another project-related errand feeling “normal” and almost hyper-energetic. However the big box store I went to drained all that out of me within a few minutes and I was lurching back home. I think after this I had water (always forget to drink water!) and a light snack and more resting.
More activity at the computer, another rest needed. In athletic training there is such a thing as “active recovery” and I suppose talking on the phone whilst propped up on the couch could count as such a thing.
Light housework, cooking ahead for the week, eating what I am going to call “dinner”, and here I am again on the computer, resting perhaps my body but not my mind. Maybe it’s time to give my mind a rest!
In sum: I had a pretty active day today, which feels good. My hope is that intermittent resting was enough to stave off downturn. Fingers and toes crossed! Oh wait no, I will lose energy trying to keep my digits in position. We’ll just wait and see then.